Voice in my head

 Owh voice in my head!!

Please just shut up and Leave!!

Leave me alone!!

Why you keep on wanted me to be sad!!!!!?

Please.... help me to stay sane instead.


Owh voice of my head.

How long have you been silent, that when you come, you throw everything at once? 

I'm so sorry for the voice of myself.

I wanted to talk so bad, but no one is ready to listen,

no one would want to be on my side,

So I just shut up and leave the voice at the back of my head

Is that the reason?


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