The thought of leaving...
How good would it feels.. To be able to live a life that I wanted. The moment that I desired... But it is just an unreal dream. That of course would not have the chance to be achieved. Leaving would be the best choice, no need to think much. I am so drained. Dont have the will to do anything. Only living my days of doing nothing valuable. The thought of leaving still exist at the back of my mind. But not as frequent as before. Because I suppressed it deep inside by not acknowledging it. I kept myself in an unreal world. Unwilling to face the reality. Because it's gonna hurts so bad.